Be an Oyster for Autism!

Every once in a while I need a pep talk.  Ok, lately, i need one at least daily.  Starting a new business is HARD on my fragile psyche.  I am the classic example of feeling the fear and doing it anyway.  I believe I'm in a transformational phase of my life.  Growing out of low self esteem and low confidence.  My thoughts can turn quickly to my old standby, I'm not good enough, I don't deserve,  what could happen if (something goes terribly wrong) and I am working very hard at catching it early, and re-directing my thoughts.  Meditation is great. Affirmations have also saved me. Yes, I know the funny Stewart Smily "I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and gosh darnit, people like me."  but I'm serious.  Without them my mind can run amuk. I can visualize my own demise, personal hell, worst case scenario, bla, bla, bla... and then I start to talk myself backwards... Ok. so you're a complete failure... can you know that it's true? (byron katie technique called the work) no? who would you be without that thought?  better?  can you see a reason to drop the though? you can? what would be a turn around statement?  You are a fantastic success?  How does it feel in your body when you say the turnaround?  Can you feel the truth in it?  Could that statement be as true or truer?... and so it goes. And for a while I keep saying, "I am a fantastic success" until the anxiety ceases.  I do my best to nip the thoughts in the bud. And if I feel strong emotions attached- to think them backwards like I just did.  Funny.  My mind and body definitely have a rythem. Before my period and when there's a full moon, I'd especially moody. But it's my job to put on a happy face for the kids... and then, as if by magic, my contrived cheerful greeetings to my kiddos returning from school, and seeing their happy faces makes me feel better, and I know I can jouney through...

• affirmations
• confidence
• self
• esteem